This memorial website was created to remember our dearest Austin Hesse who passed away on August 24, 2006. You will live forever in our memories and hearts.
On behalf of the family I would like to thank each and every visitor here and ask you to take the time to read the entire site. This site is not only dedicated to the memory of Austin but also to spread the word of the horrors of meth addiction. Feel free to give this link to anyone who might benefit from it.
Thank you for all the kind words. Our hearts and prayers go out to all of you who are battling your own addictions or trying to deal with the addictions of your loved ones.
You may contact me by clicking the link at the bottom of this page and I will be happy to forward any appropiate material to the immediate family.
This may be the story of one man's addiction but it is the story of a whole country's battle to gain our live and the lives of our children back.
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For all of our family and friends that have stood by Austin in his struggles over the years, we thank you. Austin thanks you.
For all of the people that turned away as if we were a bad situation and needed to be avoided, we hope that Austin's memories will touch a part of your heart and help you to reach out to others in need and recognize kindness and how drugs can take over someone lives. To be more compassionate humans.
Please take a stand in the fight against drugs, especially Crystal Meth. It kills and it destroys everything and everybody around it.
Austin's memory will live on forever in the hearts of everyone that knew him. In the hearts of everyone that knows how drugs can take over a life. For Austin, please don't blame him, it wasn't his fault. We will love him forever.
God Bless all of you!
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Supportive links
http://www.kci.org/
http://www.scotty-simmons.memory-of.com
www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
Clinton County Iowa Substance Abuse Help
Please Call New Directions: 563-243-2124
METH
I destroy homes I tear families apart
Take your children and thats just the start.
Im more costly than diamonds, More precious than
gold
the sorrow I bring will be a sight to behold.
If you need me , remember Im easily found
I live all around you in schools and in town
I live with the rich I live with the poor
I live down the street and maybe next door
Im made in a lab , but not like you think
I can be made under your kitchen sink
In your childs closet and in the woods
If this scares you to death it certainly should.
I have many names but theres one you know best
Im sure you heard of me , my name is Crystal Meth
MY power is awesome, try me you'll see
but if you do you may never break free
Just try me once and I might let you go
But try me twice and I'll own your soul
When I possess you , you'll steal and you'll lie
You do what you have to just to get high
The crimes youll commit for my narcotic charms
will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms
You'll lie to your mother and still from your dad
When you see their tears you should feel sad
but you'll forget your morals and how you were raised
I'll be your conscience , I'll teach you my ways.
I take KIDS from parents and PARENTS from kids
I turn people from God and separate friends
I'll take everything from you , your looks and your pride
I'll be with you always , right by your side
You'll give up everything your family your home
your friends your money then you'll be alone.
I'll take and take untill you have nothing more to give, when Im finished with you ..you'll be lucky to LIVE.
If you try me bewarned-this is no game
If given a chance I'll drive you in sane.
I'll ravish your body , I'll controll your mind
I'll own you completely your soul will be mine
The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed
The voices you'll hear from inside your head
The sweats the shakes the visions you'll see
I want you to know these are all gifts from me
But then its too late and you'll know in your heart
That you are mine and we shall not part.
You'll regret that you tried me they always do
But you came to me ..not I to you.
You knew this would happen, many times you were told
But you challenged my power and chose to be bold
You could have said "NO" and just walked away
If you could live that day over, now what would you say?
I'll be your master , you'll be my slave
I'll even go with you , when you go to your grave.
Now that youv'e met me what will you do?
Will you try me or not? Its all up to you.
I can bring you more misery than words can tell.
Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell
| Mom |
| william ellis hesse dad |
| Jennifer |
| Mom |
| Mom |
| Diane-ClaireSullivan's daughte | Addiction |
I came accross your son's story & it broke my heart. I have a nephew in jail now for over a yr because of the drug heroin - I cringe at the word! Now his brother who has been using for awhile crashed - he robbed a bank in order to set off a chain of effents - & that was to die! He wanted the police to shoot him! He went to buy a gun - thank god he couldn't get one! He went after the police officers with a box cutter. They did subdue him - but they kicked his front tooth out - beat him up some after he was handcuffed - six of them! Anyway he is getting physchiactric evaluations - he is still sucidial because of what this drug has made him - we know he will have to pay for what he did - but we want him to get the help that he needs! Of course we feel guilty for not doing something sooner - but we are behind him all the way! My mother is gone now - she was the core of the family - she taught us to that family sticks together! That's what we are doing - but what happened to my nephew - it flashed back to me what happened to your son! My heart broke all over again! I can't imagine the horror you felt when you lost your Austin - I am so sorry!
God Bless You & your family.
| Jennifer | So sorry for your loss |
I'm so sorry for your loss. Your son's story hits close to home.
I have a 24 year old son, we live in Phx, Az. He quit meth about 3 years ago but last week confirmed that he's doing it again. Like your son, he's been doing drugs for about 10 years. His mind is going.
Like the poem says, meth steals souls, but it also feels like it rips my heart from my chest. I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story.
| New Zealand Girl | Its here 2 |
We live in a beautiful part of the world which is being destroyed by this devil drug.I have felt the pain of being in love with someone who could not fight the addction.Now I know more about it I can forgive myself...I thought I could love him out of the need and lost thousands in the process. The worst part is that ,like Austin, he was the most beautiful human being when not using.Ultimately I had to walk away , but I love hm still and am so desperately angry that this filthy drug exists.Austins parents are so brave with this site,they are making some good come out of such a tragedy.In the past ten years New Zealand society has been eroded by this foul beast...such pain and misery is being felt by parents and partners here too. God give you His strength, Austins parents.
Aroha..(love)
NZ Girl
| jon | hope |
i leave for rehab tomorrow and am scared out of my mind. i stumbled upon this site as i googled "strength for rehab". anyway, i just wanted to say that visiting this site has givin me hope and reminds me that im not alone. i relate to austin in several ways. its a shame that drugs like this exist. its a shame that its so hard to get help if you are an addict. i see these are things that you are trying to change. i appreciate that.
jon 31 year old addict.
| Adrian Raye | Austin |
Jill.................
All Consuming,
Unresuming,
Fires Burning All You Miss.
But Nothing Takes Your Mind Away
From What Your Heart Bleeds On To Say
But Most Of All,
NO
All In All
My Heart Goes Out To You.......Adrian Raye.














