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Austin Hesse
Born in Iowa
22 years
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CRYSTAL METH. THE KILLER DRUG. You wore me out, that is no doubt. You kept me high, I couldn't say goodbye.


This memorial website was created to remember our dearest Austin Hesse who passed away on August 24, 2006. You will live forever in our memories and hearts.

 

On behalf of the family I would like to thank each and every visitor here and ask you to take the time to read the entire site.  This site is not only dedicated to the memory of Austin but also to spread the word of the horrors of meth addiction.  Feel free to give this link to anyone who might benefit from it.

 

Thank you for all the kind words.  Our hearts and prayers go out to all of you who are battling your own addictions or trying to deal with the addictions of your loved ones.

 

You may contact me by clicking the link at the bottom of this page and I will be happy to forward any appropiate material to the immediate family.

 

This may be the story of one man's addiction but it is the story of a whole country's battle to gain our live and the lives of our children back.

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For all of our family and friends that have stood by Austin in his struggles over the years, we thank you.  Austin thanks you.

 

For all of the people that turned away as if we were a bad situation and needed to be avoided, we hope that Austin's memories will touch a part of your heart and help you to reach out to others in need and recognize kindness and how drugs can take over someone lives. To be more compassionate humans.

 

Please take a stand in the fight against drugs, especially Crystal Meth. It kills and it destroys everything and everybody around it.

 

Austin's memory will live on forever in the hearts of everyone that knew him. In the hearts of everyone that knows how drugs can take over a life. For Austin, please don't blame him, it wasn't his fault. We will love him forever.

 

God Bless all of you!

 

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Supportive links

 

www.fullfathom5.com

http://www.kci.org/
http://www.scotty-simmons.memory-of.com

www.addictsvictorious.com

www.escapemeth.com

www.mamasite.net

http://www.mjlfoundation.org/

www.yellowribbon.org

www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

www.dailystrength.com

www.drugfree.org

 

Clinton County Iowa Substance Abuse Help

Please Call New Directions:  563-243-2124 

 

METH

I destroy homes I tear families apart
Take your children and thats just the start.
Im more costly than diamonds, More precious than
gold
the sorrow I bring will be a sight to behold.
If you need me , remember Im easily found
I live all around you in schools and in town
I live with the rich I live with the poor
I live down the street and maybe next door
Im made in a lab , but not like you think
I can be made under your kitchen sink
In your childs closet and in the woods
If this scares you to death it certainly should.

I have many names but theres one you know best
Im sure you heard of me , my name is Crystal Meth
MY power is awesome, try me you'll see
but if you do you may never break free
Just try me once and I might let you go
But try me twice and I'll own your soul
When I possess you , you'll steal and you'll lie
You do what you have to just to get high
The crimes youll commit for my narcotic charms
will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms
You'll lie to your mother and still from your dad
When you see their tears you should feel sad
but you'll forget your morals and how you were raised
I'll be your conscience , I'll teach you my ways.
I take KIDS from parents and PARENTS from kids
I turn people from God and separate friends
I'll take everything from you , your looks and your pride
I'll be with you always , right by your side
You'll give up everything your family your home
your friends your money then you'll be alone.
I'll take and take untill you have nothing more to give, when Im finished with you ..you'll be lucky to LIVE.
If you try me bewarned-this is no game
If given a chance I'll drive you in sane.
I'll ravish your body , I'll controll your mind
I'll own you completely your soul will be mine
The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed
The voices you'll hear from inside your head
The sweats the shakes the visions you'll see
I want you to know these are all gifts from me
But then its too late and you'll know in your heart
That you are mine and we shall not part.
You'll regret that you tried me they always do
But you came to me ..not I to you.
You knew this would happen, many times you were told
But you challenged my power and chose to be bold
You could have said "NO" and just walked away
If you could live that day over, now what would you say?
I'll be your master , you'll be my slave
I'll even go with you , when you go to your grave.
Now that youv'e met me what will you do?
Will you try me or not? Its all up to you.
I can bring you more misery than words can tell.
Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell



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Mom
Today is Mother's Day Austin and I my heart aches to hold you. I miss you so much my son. Your love is forever inside of me and your spirit will guide me and help me through these tough days. I love you so very much Austin
william ellis hesse dad
  1. i miss you very much austin. i just had sugery on my shoulder from the 2003 motor cycle crash iam still young and will recover 100%. iam still battling with the fingerprint board. it should not be a crime to help put a drug pusher behind bars. helping the coconino county sheriffs dept arrest the meth pusher bobby. iam continuing my education in the health-care profession. and the road next to my house is named after you.still have your dirt bike and all of our memorys. love dad.
Jennifer
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful son and I cry with you and your family.  I have been reading these letters and stories on that site, where you posted Austin's link, and all I can say is wow.  I am not a drug user and I don't know anyone that uses meth, but I can tell you that I am trying to educate myself on what's out there.  I have a 3-year-old son that I could not imagine losing and I just want to say that you are such a strong person and I am glad that you are reaching out to others who NEED help.  Unfortunately the horrible truth is that only THEY can help THEMSELVES.  You almost just wanted to (and I'm sure you have had these thoughts) lock him away in a room and hope that all this passes and that he goes back to the same person you knew and of course still love.  But I guess you can only control so much of what they do and you have to trust them to make the right decisions.  I was also looking at the pics and I can't tell you how much my heart hurt for you, Jill!  You can see the many faces of love and happiness that he brought to this world and that at one time very long ago he was an innocent boy that was unaware of the terrible temptations that this world had hidden away.  It makes me so mad to think that this drug is made out of cleaning agents, battery acid, etc.  I mean come on, who created this devil drug and why are our kids dying from things they were not allowed to go near when they were little.  Now, they are ingesting this substance and the effects are so inhuman.   I also believe that the laws should be changed for those who deal and make this drug.....if nothing else, they should be tried for murder because they are killing their spirits and then finally their very existence. Again, I am so sorry for your loss and hope that you continue to spread the word about this evil drug. My heart and thoughts are with you and your family! 
Mom
Purple roses fill your vase at the cemetary Austin. Beautiful as you are. Your love is forever planted in my heart and soul. God Bless you my son. I miss you so.
Mom
April 12, 1984 you were born Austin. Today you would've been 24 years old, that's so very hard to believe. I cherish all the memories of our love for each other. How birthdays were so special with the cake and candles, the friends and family and a special meal made just for you. I send you love and ask you to give me strength in not being able to hold you today and everyday. Stay within in me until the day we hold each other again.

Latest Condolences
Diane-ClaireSullivan's daughte Addiction

I came accross your son's story & it broke my heart. I have a nephew in jail now for over a yr because of the drug heroin - I cringe at the word! Now his brother who has been using for awhile crashed - he robbed a bank in order to set off a chain of effents - & that was to die! He wanted the police to shoot him! He went to buy a gun - thank god he couldn't get one! He went after the police officers with a box cutter. They did subdue him - but they kicked his front tooth out - beat him up some after he was handcuffed - six of them! Anyway he is getting physchiactric evaluations - he is still sucidial because of what this drug has made him - we know he will have to pay for what he did - but we want him to get the help that he needs! Of course we feel guilty for not doing something sooner - but we are behind him all the way! My mother is gone now - she was the core of the family - she taught us to that family sticks together! That's what we are doing - but what happened to my nephew - it flashed back to me what happened to your son! My heart broke all over again! I can't imagine the horror you felt when you lost your Austin - I am so sorry!

God Bless You & your family.

Jennifer So sorry for your loss

I'm so sorry for your loss.   Your son's story hits close to home. 

 I have a 24 year old son, we live in Phx, Az.   He quit meth about 3 years ago but last week confirmed that he's doing it again.  Like your son, he's been doing drugs for about 10 years.  His mind is going. 

Like the poem says, meth steals souls, but it also feels like it rips my heart from my chest.  I'm so sorry for your loss.  Thank you for sharing your story.

New Zealand Girl Its here 2

We live in a beautiful part of the world which is being destroyed by this devil drug.I have felt the pain of being in love with someone who could not fight the addction.Now I know more about it I can forgive myself...I thought I could love him out of the need and lost thousands in the process. The worst part is that ,like Austin, he was the most beautiful human being when not using.Ultimately I had to walk away , but I love hm still and am so desperately angry that this filthy drug exists.Austins parents are so brave with this site,they are making some good come out of such a tragedy.In the past ten years New Zealand society has been eroded by this foul beast...such pain and misery is being felt by parents and partners here too. God give you His strength, Austins parents.

Aroha..(love)

NZ Girl

jon hope

i leave for rehab tomorrow and am scared out of my mind.  i stumbled upon this site as i googled "strength for rehab".  anyway, i just wanted to say that visiting this site has givin me hope and reminds me that im not alone.  i relate to austin in several ways.  its a shame that drugs like this exist.  its a shame that its so hard to get help if you are an addict.  i see these are things that you are trying to change.  i appreciate that.

 

jon 31 year old addict.

Adrian Raye Austin

Jill.................

 

All Consuming,

Unresuming,

Fires Burning All You Miss.

But Nothing Takes Your Mind Away

From What Your Heart Bleeds On To Say

But Most Of All,

NO

All In All

My Heart Goes Out To You.......Adrian Raye.

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